This is
my 25 posts on this 2013 year, oh why I mention this is because it is my second
higher number of posts among these 5 years since 2009 where I started blogging.
I just exceeded the post of last year 2012 which is 24 posts, hehe why I want
to tell this ? I also don’t know, I just shower and found no different with
University because the water is cold too. This was what I thought while
bathing, yea, it’s my 25 posts, I break my second higher records, compare to
2010, what happen on my 2010, and even worst, what happen to my 2011 was just
11 posts throught out the year !! I simply gave a reason, the number of posts
just simply shows that something special happen in my life, so I blogged. My
blogs is actually writing what goes on in my life, it definitely my diary, just
I write in the form such as poetry, short novel, story telling, prose and etc. Sometimes
I write critical and analysis article, but it actually not really critical in
thinking, just sound that way, haha. Hmm… so it meant, I have quite a special
year for 2013? I have 25 post before end of the year, and it maybe going to be
more. *listening to Better Man by Robbie Williams* hump… as promised, I learn
to appreciate English song, so friend suggest me to listen to some classic
which really awesome, but I always forgot the name of song that they told me,
hmm… why I just very easy to forget. Some more they suggested me a radio fm
what 107.XX fm, I forgot again, but for the songs from the fm really started to
change my perspectives toward English songs, there are really some awesome
voices. Okay, trying my best to listen more. *now playing A Whole New World,
Alladin Disney movie theme song.* For the two songs, can I be a betterman? Are there
really a whole new world when someone or something intercepted your lifes, and everything
change, would it be? Recently I still very blur in my assignment, I don’t know
why I like suddenly don’t know how to study, I don’t know what I’m doing now,
everything just goes as slow as they can, my brain was like dysfunctioning
since the open of the school, I was like cursed by any witch to become noob!! Argh!!!!
Feel like shouting but I know, it wouldn’t bring any changes. Sigh! Okay fine, I
have to find my way out no matter how slow it drag me, I cannot die half way. Ohh
yea… suddenly I remembered of one song that I quite like few years ago, I forgot
where I got it, but it is a song from a competition, the competition is “Eurovision
song contest”, and I like the 2011 song so much that time – “Running Scared ”
by Ell and Nikki. Hahaha… I really don’t know how to listen, many people are
complaint to this song, they just couldn’t understand how come a horrible song
can won the first prize. Hmm… I also don’t know, nevermind, just listen what I feel
good. Like what she said, people just couldn’t understand why her likes Bob Marley
so much, hehe… I also don’t know why. Okay, talk about the song again, the
lyrics just something like,
“Come
to me, come to me tonight
Oh God, I need you, anyway
Baby, I just wanna be, be around you all the time
Oh God, I need you, oh…
I’m running, I’m scared tonight
I’m running, I’m scared of life
I’m running, I’m scared of breathing
‘Cause I adore you ”
Yea, it just
part of the lyrics, why running, scared of life? Scared of breathing? Hehe…
seem like not, is because adore someone? So when met up, they will running
scared. Hmm.. try not to explain much, really cannot understand what the English
lyrics song try to mean. It sounds a bit emo when the first part, and I think
of, she really emo and in bad mood today, I wonder why, is it really just because
of the problem of 3G or other else ? She asked me yesterday, what the reason
for called her for the first time, am I flirting her? Frankly say I really don’t
know, I want her to be happy, but I worry, so can that consider as flirting? Maybe
these days she was alone, all friends went out and even I back home to teach
and lead for Sunday worship. Time passed, and I feel that we start to know each
other much, and I keep denied in front of her that I have feeling towards her,
why I was like that? Because I don’t want to be responsible or I just coward?
Somemore people say that I am a flowerhearted guys, playboy, flirt here and there,
OMG, I’m that kinds of male-being. I remembered that a senior girls, quite lot
of people dislike her, but I just like not my business, I’ll take her as friend
if she willing to talk, one day she talked, but I in bad, you ah, every girls
at kk know you’re a flirting boy la. I’m like, what the we seldom talk then you
say this kind of things, but it really make me stop to think, am i? I always
give this reason, you know why I really good with and treat them good, you know
I have 5 female creatures in my house since young, 1 mother and 4 sisters, and I
always talk and play with them than my dad and brother, so what false I really
feel more comfort when talk with girl. Okay fine I just couldn’t explain
anymore, people will say explain is such a symptom to cover lie. So I said I don’t
want explain more, and yesterday, I think she will be quite sad when I say
maybe my intention is to flirt, but at the end she said a words, maybe you
brought up with 5 girls, that’s why you good with girls. I was like so touch
that time, someone told what actually I’m thinking, but I think it cannot last
long for me as a reason to treat most girl good, why, first my future gf will
jealous, second people will see me as a playboy, third….. hmm cannot think of
third, lazy. But I really appreciate those who still good to me, I found that I
really mess up my friendships, what am I doing, haiz… you said people like to
call you the surname which same with mine due to the structure of your fb name.
hehe… so I joking why my surname not good meh, you don’t want to be my sister
meh? And her questioned back, you really wish that I become your sister? Hehe… I
scolded her that don’t know chinese culture. First, but this cannot count la,
just the way those immature kids trick, they always like to call the girl they
like to be their mei mei, so they have much more excuse to get close to them,
haha… but I hate this actually, so I never have any “mei mei” when secondary
school, now I offered leh, but she don’t want, haha. Yea, we are no longer a
secondary kids. Secondly, she really don’t know, the hidden meaning of using
the same surname with a man which mean husband and wife relation, Mr and Mrs
Khoo, haiyo, this easy also don’t know, but nevermind la, I don’t want to say
more le, later people thought I’m flirting again, what the……. Sienzzz…. Huh… no
time liao, tomorrow worship scripts haven’t done somemore, hahahhaha… walao
ehh, die liao la…. Another English song that I like *Just give me a reason by
Pink.*
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