these days that without contact

Neigh… Neigh… It’s horse year now!! Happy chinese new year!! It is a common greeting that we will receive, the word “HAPPY”. I’m curious when people sent me that, are they really happy? Or they are asking me to be happy? and sometimes I feel awkward too when I greet people that way, hmm… I think is me think too much. It’s a happy festive for people to gather and celebrate, even you are in sorrow, please… stay strong awhile to enjoy this moment with everyone.

However when there is time being alone, I will think of what have happened few days ago, it kinda bad, but just jot down my feeling. Yea, we stop messaging about 3 days I think. Honestly, I damn unhappy that day when she scold me, maybe is my fault, but at least you let me know the reason. So I think maybe both of us need some time to reconsider, that’s why she didn’t find me, and as I do. This few days we didn’t chat, and see whether actually… I will miss her or not? The feeling was hardly to describe, I did miss her. I feel like she’s just surrounded me. For example:

I worked as a Tiger beer merchandiser at Giant Superstore mart,
surrounds me are a lot of foods for sure,
the moment when i saw some foods,
i will think of you.
The item that reminded me of you the most was
"Nature Valley Crunchy Biscuit",
and others such as Ribena, Munchy, Vochelle Chocolate......  

 

Yea, it was an unexpected lunch box by my friend mom.
"Box" reminded me again, the time when we passed food around to each other,
our "food box" !!
But you always said, you dislike give lai give qu,
but for sure, i never thought of that,
i just think that i want to share things with you,
maybe is just some simple foods, is what i have and the best i can gave,
is actually caring.

Cameron friend came and they said want to go Pub.
So i just followed. Girls are dancing around,
Boy and Girl are freely touching and even petting each other
if you dare to stand up on stage.
After some time i just walked out to breath fresh air
and get a silent place, i really miss you that time. 

I tried to wait for her reply, 3 days, and I think I know the answer. These few days when we were no chatting, i think a lot of things about us. Our personality, how we perceive life, our view of future…… Are we really suit each other?

I still remember the first few times I saw her, she really caught my attention. She always dressed sporty, that’s why I thought she is a kampong girl, but actually not, she even knows the world more than me in some sense. She likes to travel, do I like too? I’m asking myself, maybe since young, my family was not really capable to support me to travel here and there, so I really seldom travel. If travel also just within Malaysia. After I came to university, the people surrounded me was, talking about where to travel, I feel inferior at the first when you know, the girl who you like is live that way, but you’re not. But how, it is impossible to make a change in this short term,  3 to 5 years and even more. I think I am open minded enough, but when I said slap people is not good, but what she think slap is mean more of a relationship can be closer. If just play play slap is not a problem, but what I always remembered was, the day when I caused my friend to slap by teacher, and the teacher at my secondary who like to slap student harshly, I really feel like want to slap them back, they just not respect us as a student. This is why I say respect, but because I cannot play. Yea, I think our personality has a bit different, maybe she is from east and I am west, some more I’m educated at church since young, sure you can imagine how a Christian look like. And the most important was, I don’t know where am I going to now, my future I mean, before this I think I want to continue study until PhD, then become a lecturer, or I worked at church, but I know this kind of life couldn’t give a girl any great promised, so I have to be a business man? earn a lot money? That’s why, a man, can be no money but cannot don’t have a great ambeetion right. 

I continue to think, what is she in my life? Yea, people see me like to flirt, but you never know, there is limit to flirt a girl when you find the one you like! Being good with girl call flirt? But I never think more than friendship zone. Hehe… everything seems to be so wrong when I say this kind of thing when she is worrying of her examination.

Today I watched “500 days of summer”, the story line was really quite similar. At first we met, then we start become close, but we are confused, what’s our label of relationship (friend, good friend, admire, or couple) actually? At the end, they ended up didn’t see each other and the girl marry to another guys. What a sad ending!! Would this be our ending too? I really don’t know. 

“If Tom had learned anything... it was that you can't ascribe great cosmic significance to a simple earthly event. Coincidence, that's all anything ever is, nothing more than coincidence... Tom had finally learned, there are no miracles. There's no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. He knew, he was sure of it now.” ― 500 Days of Summer

btw... Tom missed Summer, but he found Autumn  <3>

New Year leh, dragon horse spirit mar, just prepared myself, you miss and lose too much eggplant!! Don't make the same mistake next time. Good Luck and All The Best. 

what a tiring Day!

Today was the first day worked from 10am to 10pm, 12 hours; and the main problem is, the beer is giving discount on weekend, I have to carry the beer from the store room to the front, okay, roughly count, I have carry at least 400 cartons of beer, *fainted*. It was not count in the other work that I helped others. I was looking at the migrant workers, Nepal, Bangla… They’re even working more long hours, non-stop from morning to night, I really cannot imagine how this kind of life is going to carry on, but they still working happily, because they know, their effort will bring them to a better future! 

I swore, I tried to swear, but at the end I didn’t. I just deeply feel that I don’t want my life to be like this, I hope I can make some change not even to my life, but for others, like the slogan that Christian like to shout for: “For Christ, For others.” Can I ? What can I do if I always just slacking, floating here and there, following people steps, changing myself because the girl wanting life as the way they wish. I were really confusing with my life.

Phew… okay, just say something simple enough like writing diary. Yesterday was my nightmare, I don’t know where I infected by those dust, I got my eye itchy and I keep rubbed and it turn red, fine, the dust made me a runny nose and finally, I almost cannot open my eye and breath smoothly. What a shit Friday!! Then today again liked what has I said above, really a freaking tired day, all my colleague for Tiger and Carlsberg were, I really angry, they can simply came late to work, okay fine, they can do work slowly, is still fine, but they can say in front of other people that I keep snake!! I buay tahan liao!! What the shit, who snake the most?! Everyone snake, and is fine if there’re no promotion, but halo, today promotion, if we didn’t fill the stock faster, later who will be scolded? Sure the one who didn’t snake out will be scolded! Wah… really! So fine, I do it myself. Maybe people think I’m a fool like fooling by people working alone, but you’re wrong, at least I have the power to voice out someday if I need. Really *pissed off*!!!

Luckily yesterday got a people replaced another person and he was my student last time, he did a good job in helping me. Hahaha… let show you all how the working life here that we must learn to be a monkey, climb up, jump down, use your brain to organize the way to clear stock, all is some useless challenging. 

haha.. sorry for curi-curi ambil your gambar!!
okay, this is how we climbed up to move the others things before we can get what we want. Somemore this is still lucky if we got stair to use.

This is what meant by Monkey skills, or even Jackie Chan's climbing skills!! Sometimes we even have to climb between stock by stock,
 really like Kung Fu fighting scene. shiok, but actually the leg damn tired!!

One more things which I cannot understand. That night she was suddenly angry with me because I told a lame joke, that’s what I guessed and maybe not, I did something even more serious, and she angry with me. I said sorry before sleep and commented on her status and even sent her something with no replied, ahh… what happened? Yesterday I was really nearly fall sick and after got back home, drunk a cup of milk, bathed and directly sleep. I have no more energy. Sometimes when you need people to care for you, but you found no one. Maybe I was wrong, I tried my best to be good, but maybe I was not good enough to be someone that can play a role in another person life.

Improvement is still vastly needed, ya, it’s freaking tired, but life still goes on, watch’up man!!

what's life?

Car bumped into longkang, shit… My first time that drove so careless, never mind, dad said after that to my sister, whenever you crash your car, the important things is to stay calm and act steady, as important is you are fine no matter how the car wrecked like. Although it seem like embarrassed, but fine at least I learnt how to hijacked the car from longkang, haha… consoling myself. I were really feeling lazy that day to turn my sterling, and I was wondering how close can I parked near to the side of the longkang, yet I proved, I can park in the longkang as well. Hahaha… okay, that’s life.

Thanks dad for helping,
you'll find someone who really love you,
or who you love, the true love, or a loving friend,
when you're in trouble,
the one who love or beloved
will lend you a helping hand
without blaming.

After successfully hijacked the car tire from longkang, my dad asked me to go pasar malam with mom to help her take the things she bought. Okay, I have no excuses for this time since I made dad so tired helping me to carry up the tire and at the same time my hand was hurt and nearly bleeding when I screwing the jack.

Such a long time didn’t visit this Tuesday night market, anyway there’re nothing special for me to purposely visit. Since I was here, I have to buy something to eat although there are really nothing special, just the soya and tau fu hua. I remembered once I came to buy the soya, the soya uncle’s daughter really beautiful, I’m wondered where has she went these few years since I never saw her helping her parents after that. However I can clearly remembered she was my senior in secondary school but I never attract by her until that time I bought the soya, maybe like what people like to say, girl changed drastically when 18!

Okay, I have to follow my mom to buy some vegetables. “Mari mari… satu dua ringgit, tiga lima ringgit!!” The hawker is shouting to get the intention of customer to visit their stall.
 

I found really surprise when I saw the vegetables were only 5 ringgit, im thinking… five ringgit is really cheap, with the amount of the vegetables, it can be cooked for at least 3 days. Wow… 3 days just spending around five to ten ringgit if we cooked by our own, damn save money okay! Contemporary with the inflation problem, to spent not more than fifty ringgit per week is really a good consumer behavior for this short term period of high living cost atmosphere. 

No matter how the life wrecked,
it's still life.

      What’s life actually? Coincidently with the bumped tire in longkang and the visitation to this high inflation economic society, I can only summed out the conclusion as no matter how worst the situation now would be, stay steady and work for it step by step although it seem in a slow progression.

Secondly, spend wisely since there are many chances for us to save money. What can be said was, ya… maybe it is embarrassing to live poor, people will look down on us, but that was what we were facing, why we want to act like we are rich if we are not. Be independent like what has said, is difficult because there are many aspects to consider, economically independent, decision independent or mentally independent? Maybe some of them claimed that they are independent, they can spent a lot of money as what they wanted, but they are using the money not earn by themselves, are they really knowing the meaning of independent. Again that’s life, maybe they are the people who were born with a silvers in mouth, so independent seem more easier, but that’s their business, we have to do our best to live our life. 

Life is a non-repeated season.
When you were a child,
when you are a youth,
when you turn adolescent,
when you facing death.
However they wouldn't replay even once,
so appreciate all the moment that we are going through. 

窃听风云

“邱德荣！老师刚才讲的最后一句话是什么？”大波零科学老师突然喊着我的名字问道。

“叶绿素会帮助植物产生光合作用！”我震惊且迅速回答。

大波零老师睁大眼睛看着我，“哇，你可以一心二用的哦？”原因是当时我正在和一朋友说话。

我呵呵尴尬地笑着。

大波零老师继续说，“很厉害啊可以一心二用，不要讲话了啊，专心听课。”

哦…我冒着冷汗、光荣地点点头。心里暗爽！

其实我知道那只是侥幸和那么巧合的我听了老师最后一句话，然后他就叫我了。为什么我那么肯定是侥幸，因为随后的几年还是上课不专心、爱讲话，结果被老师叫到时却哑口无言。回想当年的一心二用，真的只是侥幸。

虽然还是喜欢老调重提那光荣的往事，可是更离谱的莫过于还以为自己真的有那种超能力，所以每次都爱在吵杂的地方温书，结果……就是被别人的谈话给吸引、被人来人往的脚步分神。

今天感觉家里又要打战了，迅速收拾了书本书包就往外溜，找一间宁静的餐饮店坐坐来酝酿温书的心情。麦叔叔嘛？还是不要啦，还蛮吵的；就选了家乡唯一的饮料专卖店“鼎茶”坐了下来。一踏入店门，够力了，两堆人在聊天，还好他们都不是在高谈阔论，只是呢喃细语。

眼睡点了杯特调咖啡，没有很特别调过的感觉，喝就是了。然后翻开书本，开始为过去的懒散奋力啃书！你玛他们离我太靠近了，呢喃细语声声入耳，蛤！专注！一边是讲日常生活的事情，旅游啦、教会啦、深造啦；另一边是谈生意，至于什么生意嘛、直销吧、安利吧？哇佬！这叫专注吗？结果别人的谈话还真的声声入耳。没办法，只能继续专注，慢慢啃。终于，一个一个离席，状态渐渐入佳。

过了不久后令桌约来了一“客户”，开始谈生意！哇塞，又来！没关系，我是一心二用的高手，虽然已是十年前的事。

他们闲聊了片刻，神人我没有被影响，突然间他开口入正题，问了第一句话，“想问你有玩MONOPOLY吗？”我自由意志顿时被牵制的聆听，他的下文会是什么？这句够杀！

“有。”那学生客户必定也愣了一会儿的回复。

他继续问，“那么请问玩MONOPOLY要怎样才可以赢？”

“……”，他眼珠上膛。

“买多多地对不对？建多多屋子是不是？睬在人家的地对不对？”他帮他回答。接着，“这就好像我们的现实生活一样，我们都需要踩在别人的头上才能赢！”

“……”，同样的无声。

“你想想我们每一天都需要做什么？洗头对不对，洗头就需要洗头液对不对，每洗一次都要钱对不对？”穷追不舍的狂问。

“所以你要开杂货店？！”那家伙机智的反问。

“对！开杂货店。不过要好像Giant Tesco那种，我们的客人要源源不绝的。”他开始了他的生意念头的长篇论述。我也开始了我的一心三用！第一，拼命掩二啃书、第二，不时被声声入耳、第三，突然有好歌又会不经意的跟着哼。

你想一想开一间店要多少钱？我们身为学生肯定没有那么多钱租下一间店面，不过我们有面书（穿插一下扎克伯格创立面书的励志故事），我们可以开一间网络杂货铺。可是我们不能只是卖，要帮助消费者成为一位“生产消费者”（这句神），那就是除了消费以外，他们还能生产，赚回一些利润。（幹！我真的有种冲动要拿椅子坐过去一起听！）

“你说你想要找个宽厚的肩膀，问自己带你到什么地方……”SoundHound SoundHound，什么歌来的！哦…张信哲的宽容。突然有点点伊漠了，她说她有个梦想，可是问问自己却不能带她到那个梦想的国度去。

“你知道麦当劳吗？”我霎时又被吸引了回来，麦叔叔？什么咚咚他要讲。他说了几个关于麦当劳的营业策略，不是听很清楚，因为一直在逼自己专心啃书。

不知第几，开杂货铺我们需要有SUPPLIER，就好像麦当劳的汉堡材料都需要有个供应商，这是很重要的，所以我们的供应商会是安利公司…………然后又说了一大堆。（如果麦叔叔的Supplier就只有供应材料，那每一间店都可以发达了！麦叔叔的供应商厉害在于他们有研发材料的科技能力，就拿他们的Nugget来说，难道你能在百货超市里买到然后自己炸吗？他都云吉的，好像抄了麦当劳的营销策略，其实不过表面，若只是这样谁不会？）

然后又来，我们的系统要像麦当劳制造汉堡的过程，你看他们员工炸薯条，只要一丢进油里，笛一声，就搞定了，这叫统一化(standardization)。（好像很厉害，只是有哪个体制不是统一的标准底下运作的？不过他要把消费和生意混为一，好像很不错；不过早在十八世纪马克思的年代，工厂里的统一化以被诉诸为去人性化，虽然没有到那么严重，只是在这多元与变化极快的消费社会，消费者要求的就是特别，你还来要统一，可行性大吗？）

说到底，他还是一套直销体制的延伸复制品罢了，然后伟大的可以被誉为麦叔叔的“品牌联合战略(co-branding strategy)”，只是麦叔叔有自己独创的汉堡，然后和可口可乐合作，他有的只是复制的运作概念和旧有的产品。

年级渐渐长成，身边的朋友读书的读书、打工的打工、做生意的做生意，茶余饭后的话题常常都视对象而定。每每和打工或做生意的朋友谈天，大家都在想着如何发展自己的事业，只是好像都无法找到更好的突破。

那家伙其实还不错了，体制和方法有了、网络的重要被考量了、口才好像也不错（虽然一直回避他朋友的问题），只是可不可能，学生的生意其实要怎么做？便宜是必定的，只是现今要为消费者制造一个身份想必更为重要。乍看麦当劳、星巴克如何塑造用户的形象，每当你上传一张和星巴克咖啡的照片，那叫个人的生活品味！也许可以像每所大学在面书设立的CONFESION页面一样，有INTI CONFESION、UM CONFESION、UTAR CONFESION……里头就创造了另一种生活话题的无限性，生意，也许也需要如此，创造品味、创造一个群体的共识与认同。

(Movie's review) Mandela : Long Walk to Freedom

        Long time didn’t blogging with my lousy English, let write a short review after watched “ Mandela : Long walk to freedom ” movie yesterday night. Last movie was few weeks back, “ escape plan ”, I think I was too bad, without step into cinema, I never watched a downloaded movie anymore, I’m just too lazy to download and watching alone facing the laptop. If I do so, I will keep press the forward button, not more than 30minutes I can finish a movie, not more than one day I can finish a drama, that’s how I watch movie if using laptop. I’m trying my best to express my feeling after watching Mandela biographical film, but I tried so hard without any idea of what to write.

          The only feeling I have were the inspiration that try to deliver from this movie. We know that Nelson Mandela is a hero of the black, the anti-apartheid revolutionary leader, a person who passed half of his life in prison… However we never know how he can stay strong on his suffered time which in prison, insulted by the guards, separated from his family, cannot visit or even burial his son… Maybe we can celebrate and praise that he is the nation hero even internationally, he voiced out the injustice of racial politics. But we never know how a hero has to sacrifice a lot of his own happiness to change something. 

          Another thing was how a hero can stay strong on his resolution or determination when his family, mother even his wife not agree and support his actions. From the movie we can see that, maybe he is a disloyal man, he flirts many girls and even remarriage another girl after his first wife abandoned him. Until he met a girl who understand him and gave him a lot of support even he was imprisoned for 26 years. If a girl that willing to suffer with you, is that we can call it true love?

Mandela second wife, Winnie.
A woman who willing and understand,
gave her puberty times to a man he love
although their life
is full with suffering and separated.

         Through Mandela’s entire life, the most important spirit that have in him was never give up, his effort in prison was clearly shown when he said to his comrade, our first mission is to fight for long pants! Definitely it will take a long time, but we have to demand it slowly and step by step. Maybe some of our life is changing slowly, but we have to believe and stay strong, although it is slow, but one day, we can make some different if we never give up. That’s why I think the movie gave the name, long walk to freedom.  

做工那些事 III

时隔一年后又次地披上那啤酒销售员的服装在百货公司里溜达渡日，叹！又会是虚度光阴的两周，可是看在下学期可能需要额外开销的费用份上，还是得救急救急一番，至少需要到的时候不需要那么懊恼东挖西借！

一如往常地……不！不过在这巨人（GIANT）工作过一次，怎么好像就扮非常熟悉呢？不过还是那句，“以为”一如往常地像往年一样销售就是了；价钱嘛，还不是那样，贴了就照念——新年必需品嘛，价格贵一点点还是得买啊，只是少或多。

不！这一天不在是如往常，顾客突然问道，“这啤酒怎样卖？做莫有两个价钱的？”我霎时愣了一下，对哦！做莫有两个价钱的？才发现，真的不如往常了；原来，巨人的销售部门已经撤换了销售策略。

“买一便宜二”

现今的物品都喜欢以“买一便宜二”的策略，既是第一件物品是原价、只要你买第二件，就会有折扣。虽然折扣后的价钱和往年的第二波折扣潮是一样的，不过差别却在于，它尝试刺激消费者的购买量。例如：一箱仙地售价RM29.88、第二箱就能以RM23.88购买、平均除后将是每箱RM26.88。这价格显得和往年的每箱RM26.88是一样的。消费者为了得到那折扣后的价格往往都会选择，“哎呀，反正便宜，就买两箱啦！”也许许多小康之家并不需要到那么多，可是却因为价格，并非用量而去购买。也许这就是市场营销学里的价格策略，“你不是透过价格出售产品，你是出售价格。”同样的，消费者并不是购买需要，而是迁就价格来购买。

起初并不觉得这是什么大问题，只是在一位小女孩的眼中，我看见了怜悯！

小女孩牵着妈妈的手来到仙地摆设的地方，指着说，“咪，有便宜耶！”她只选择了阅读折扣后的数字，不理会其余的文数字。母亲与小女孩徘徊了一阵子，我走向前，“安娣，买第一箱是原价二九八八，第二箱才有折扣二三八八，所以两箱加起来扣了后每箱是二六八八。”母亲还是沉默，小女孩一脸疑惑的看着母亲。

她：“要买两箱才有便宜噢！”小女孩似乎还不明白母亲的话，“咪，买这个。”小女孩期待中带着奢望的眼神望着母亲，母亲只是轻轻的、慢慢的嘱咐着，“走吧！”小女孩不时回头的望望，再看看母亲的背影，似乎抓摸不清离开的理由。

母亲、
小女孩，
来来回回、
来来回回……

突然有种感受，这销售策略很多时候抹杀了低产人士享受佳节礼品的权益，如果一箱如以往一样售价二六八八或者更低二三八八，母亲也不需不会让小女孩的眼神添加回眸的绝望。两箱就算折扣了，怎么说还是需要五三七六，对很多人来说，在这百货涨价的年头，它的价值还是蛮大的！

悲悸的心情还在澎湃的瞬间突然被打断，后方传来喊叫声，“cepat pergi isi stok!!”不知是什么级别的管理层在指示我们做事、快点补货！

心情正在酝酿的途中被打断是很令人不爽的！我直接辩护，“Kak,tak payah isi la, tak da orang beli pun …”在我吹水还未吹完竟然又被打断，“tak penduli,asalkan stok penuh, pergi isi isi isi.”当然是更不爽啦，“kak, bukan ni macam, harga tak rendah ma, customer pun tak beli, bagi sikit kosong baru orang rasa, tak beli nanti habis.”两人的声音不断穿插不休，“tak tak, policy kita adalah isi isi isi, bagi penuh setiap masa.”不屑的我继续硬拼，“kak tak tau management, tak tau sikap manusia …”结果还是被痛轰一番，去补货……转个圈，继续我行我素。

脑子酝酿着另一种想法。价格不是很便宜啊，多数人都会宁愿搏一次，等待价格再抛售，即使赌错了也甘愿。因此，决定要买的人，他们不理价格，买就是；决定不买的人，你说到口干他也不睬你；所以关键就在边缘的消费者——买，不买？

通常人脑袋都有“捷思法”(Heuristic)的功能，既是不假思索的决定某些行为。例如最常见的就是，“贵的东西一定是好的，只是买不买得起。”捷思法如何在这边缘消费者身上发起一种视觉说服力就在于，“货少，必定是反应热烈；不买，等下就没有了。”这我绝对没有吹牛，我就静静地坐在一旁，就有一些顾客经过，“咦，不懂便宜没有。”随后，“可是货不多了，不买等下就没了。”证明了我的猜测是正确的。既然要买和不要买的已经不需理会，那所谓的政策(policy)当然是针对这些边缘消费者而定呀！并不是一味的“补！补！补！”

虽然看似很虚度、虽然好像很同情、虽然好像有点想法，可是更多的是，那个脑袋儿还在混乱，接下来该如何！

我不是战神

英雄佩宝剑是自古于今不变的常理。自三国时代有关羽与其青龙偃月刀、金庸笔下有明教张无忌的屠龙刀和峨嵋掌门人周芷若的倚天剑；现代较为现实莫过球坛中的运动装备，科比布赖恩独有的篮球鞋、每个时代伟大球员的球衣号码，试问哪个英雄不是配备着某些独特的物品呢！

不晓是不是被周星驰影响过甚，他那滑稽偶尔却留给别人一些遐想的空间。

赵薇：馒头五毛钱一个，
两个一块。

周星驰：这么贵？

赵薇：是啊！

周星驰：所以说一分钱一分货，
我刚好身上有5毛钱，
剩下的过两天再给行不行？

赵薇：不行。

周星驰：好！学武之人讲句话都这么洒脱。
其实我也是武林中人，
（伸出腿）给点面子好不好？

赵薇：不好。

周星驰：好！（脱下自己的破烂鞋）
我这双名贵球鞋，
原价2块，因为你，1块5，
我就多拿一个馒头行啦。

我想应该是这样吧！我想多数人的小时候都会都某些事情或物品会有想得到的憧憬吧？也许是个洋娃娃、一个想去的地方、一件不做会后悔的事……

球鞋，对我来说是很遥远的东西，或者说我也没必要拥有一双球鞋。小学嘛，凡是有校鞋就好，只是到了中学，看着球场上的朋友都有一双属于自己的球鞋，突然……叹！它还是太贵的奢侈品。偶然在家里发现一双跑步鞋，就穿了两年。中三那年获选篮球校队，我想是时候买一双球鞋了。很庆幸得到认可，就买了人生第一双篮球鞋！只是很不幸的，百五块感觉被坑，买了一双质量不那么好的REEBOK球鞋。从此，我就认定了只买REEBOK牌子的球鞋。

中五那年，我买了第二双球鞋，价值也不过180的红白线条球鞋，可是质量比起之前的可差远了。转眼间，它就陪伴了我3年多的岁月，各个比赛、翻山越岭、逛街或出席活动，它都包办。只是岁月也不留物，用久了始终会坏，前前后后补修了数回，只是也到了它该退休的时候。之后买了两双球鞋始终都不及它的舒服。

昨夜，忘了把新球鞋带回家，霎时记起还有那双被收藏的破烂鞋。再次解封出场，这一夜，也许太留恋、也许太压抑，第一次打了一场连自己也惊吓的篮球！

我不是什么篮球战神、我不需要像科比还是小皇帝般有自己专属的球鞋，只是希望穿着一双喜欢的球鞋、操着一手没有技术的篮球，然后还可以在球场上快活来去，就够了。

这双鞋、这一夜、让我再次体会打篮球的兴奋。

告别的季节

看着时针秒针并列的霎那，大伙儿难掩心中的欣喜，

“我们终于熬过了艰辛又折磨人精神体力的考试了！”


大家纷纷宣告，耶！我终于完成了我的第一学期、第二学期、
第二年、第三年……

考试前那德国小伙找了我要求为他翻译往年的试卷，因为那该死的往年竟然都是用国文回答，让这些交换生难免受困。他跟我说了几遍，“今天之后我们都不会再见了”，只是我都听不明，明天不是还要一起应考吗？考完试后要嘛不是在考场呆一会儿不就可以了。讨论临别前他突然说，明天我考完试后，如果有多的时间，我把考题信息你吧，你至少可以过目作最后准备。我愣了数秒，突然醒来才知道原来他的考试时间提早了。我露出僵硬的笑容，一句不哼！这是你打算送我的告别礼吗？我想要有如此不畏惧他人成绩比你好的人实在是太难得了！

心中难免有些激动，当然不是因为有泄题可知。只是要典当他身为学生所谓的道德，我想还是算了吧。这份大礼，我心领了！

（请用中国腔念此段，也许会批有凡感。）那一天考完了那张试卷，那被称为屌丝三人组的只剩二人，那第二中国小伙伴看到我便直呼，“嘿……你怎么没来考试呀？”我有啊我说！原来他这屌丝是没看到，我还说，“我还坐第一排呢！你与我擦肩怎么会没看见我呢？”他很好奇地说没有没有没有，没有看到我。算了吧！我们还是说说别的。考试如何？才写了三页。几时回国？明天。“什么！明天？”我吓了跳，那么快吗？“对呀！”他操着一口可爱的嗓调，“明天就要回国啦，我们有缘再见啦……”不知为何他那句“我们有缘再见啦”不断地回荡在脑海中，那嗓子太可爱动听了！幹！我是爱上同志了吗？不吧。可是回荡中却渐渐听出了丝丝忧伤。原来是说了再见，或不再见。

她问我几时得空，要还我借她的计算机，还说要请我吃一顿简单的午餐。商谈了许久，星期六就在图书馆见吧。只是她提出的简单午餐，我失陪了。她按预定的时候迟到了两小时，也许是期望可以在回国前不想渡过孤单的午餐，只是还只能说抱歉。她爬到图书馆顶楼，把计算器放在我桌上，跟着还递了一桶马铃薯片给我，我说不用那么客气啦，只是那是她的一番心意吧。




看着薯片，这又是另一份的告别礼吗？

从小到大的考试，也许经历离别最深的那年还是高中考吧，往后的日子大家都各奔东西继续深造了。如今，考试的季节，它更像是一场渐渐走来的告别，有欢喜、却也难免蕴藏不舍。

虽然并不是你亲手为我冲泡，
可是每次我泡着你留下的利宾纳，
都是一种温馨。

看着这瓶“利宾纳”，是她在回乡前留下的鼓励，我告诉她：

“I'll fill your caring with my effort to feel it.”*

有些关心，是需要付诸努力去感受的；有些离别，也需要留下关怀，让大家怀念的。

* caring = ribena
   effort = water